How did it get here? I mean it was bad for a long time, but not like this. Everytime I told myself \u2018\u2019It can\u2019t get worse\u2019\u2019, it actually did. One tiny hope I had, maybe I\u2019ll be happy, maybe this could work. Maybe I deserve love.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kicked me right down. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
You once said \u2018\u2019hope dies last\u2026but it also dies\u2019\u2019, you were right on the mark. Now that I think about it, you always knew that we weren\u2019t gonna work. You always knew, you didn\u2019t want a relationship, so you just held on to me, till something else came along. It was always bound to fail. Everytime I wanted to run away from you, everytime I wanted you to finally make the decision. I told you \u2018\u2019I can\u2019t just fu*k around anymore\u2019\u2019 and you didn\u2019t wanna hurt me, so you agreed.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
How the hell did I still end up hurt? So much more.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What was it that made you do it? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
How was it okay for you, hurting me like that? In the process also making me question who I am. I lost myself. All because I gave you everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So much I wanna say, I\u2019m feeling blocked. I don\u2019t even know myself anymore. I changed a lot, since I met you. Changed my lifestyle and routines, just so I could fit yours. This fu*ked me up. You should be here. You can\u2019t just disappear. I don\u2019t wanna forget you.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
How am i so mad at you, but so in love with you?<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"