My mind is violating my soul, unable to stand here any longer. I only see causes of misfortune while we keep searching for forever. The power of my mind is failing me. I would not be happy even by gaining victory over the foe. What pleasure will we attain from such triumph? If one’s real self-interest is only the misery of others, there is no point, as he will show ignorance again.
Such a conditioned soul needs to realize alone. Therefore, continues to suffer material pains. I do not see any good in causing a fight. Desiring deep down a subsequent victory, as I stand before my falling kingdom, observing with a blind conception of life, hoping for it to rise again.
Being stuck in a battlefield, fighting against my biggest enemy, myself. Comfortably neglecting, even the causes of material satisfaction, in search of another occupation, constantly bumping into the same issue. Drowning cowardly in sins, while learning sufficient lessons.
Determined to strive for love and liberation, one cannot continue, not even a day without it. And my “Lord”, you don’t know it yet. We will again give birth to life, exchanging deep affection and empathy, due to moral understanding and support.